Matthew 9:29b

[Jesus] said "According to your faith will it be done to you."

Sadly, perhaps I don't have enough faith right now. In two months, I plan to be in Toronto for training and, shortly thereafter, be on a plane to Ghana. I have received nothing from SIM thus far and the package was supposed to have been mailed last week. I have nearly reached panic mode because there is so much to be done: vaccinations, travel arrangements, fundraising, police check,prayer team assembly, etc. I hate things being left to the last minute because spontaneity and unpredictablity make me feel rather uneasy.

Fortunately, this is where God comes in and saves the day; where I am weak, He is strong. If this trip is going to happen, it ought to be done His way. As I think back to my first trip to Ghana in 2000, I know that spontaneity is the name of the game. As frustrated as I feel now, I know this serves as preparation for my time there (and, strangely enough, this is good in all areas of my life). I am way too much of a control freak sometimes. In all areas of my life, if I can't see what lies ahead, I like to back away and do nothing, rather than trust God and make a step/leap of faith. About a year ago, I finally conceded to myself that this fear thing was really incompatible with faith. I prayed for more faith, so here it is, yet another chance to exercise my faith muscles.

OK, no more ranting. I am feeling a little more rational now. I'll wait patiently for the package knowing that the best thing will work out.

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